I’m standing alone in the dark, there’s a tiny ray of light. I can feel and see shadows dancing around me. That’s just creepy… I can feel them approaching. They’re getting closer. Their eyes begin to shine to shine in the dark, I can see them craving for me, wanting to eat every bit of flesh and drag me down to the abyss. They grab me an start biting while I scream my hear out.
“But it’s hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him out!”
I start shaking like a lunatic. No one and no’thing’ will stop me from doing my ridiculous signature latino move, That’s my dance and I won’t let some stupid demon take it away from me.
I dance as fast and as hard as I can. No matter how crazy I looked, at least I scared them demons away.
I hope you get my message through that brief simple scene…
Reply to “New Wrinkles” by The Daily Post:
I woke up today to find myself ten years older than I was yesterday night! What the…
I’m thirty-three years old now. This makes me think of the movie “13 Going on 30”, only a few hours ago I was 23. I come out of my room and everything is just not the same anymore… Of course, I’m in shock, but let’s skip the boring details shall we.
There are two identical kids running around this unfamiliar house and a handsome man playing with them. Could they be…? Well, yes they are! One of the kids runs towards me saying: “mommy’s awake!” That’s kind of cute. I never thought I’d ever like having kids or a husband for that matter. I’m more of a workaholic kind of person. In fact, after seeing my working office at home, I guess I still am.
Anyway, as a “mommy”, I drive the kids to school (both first graders) and make sure that my “husband” or I pick them up in the afternoon.
So, according to my agenda and all the papers on that desk, I’m a freelance writer and the Co-Founder of a magasine. I check my laptop for any CV’s and when I find it, I open it up. Amazing… Apparently throughout those past ten “years” -ten hours for what I’ve felt- I’ve accomplished quite a lot.
On the other side, I still have the same best friends. How amazing is that? They all are now either a Chief Editor in a huge company, the Chef of their own restaurant, a famous architect, a Criminologist, a movie director or they own a company. Seems all of their dreams came true. We still gather two or three times a week.
My parents are still alive. Thank God! My sister became a graphic designer. My brother is a CEO in a company. His son is twelve now and oh so handsome!
I’ve had a lot of plans to accomplish, but that burden has now gone off my shoulders. However, wouldn’t it have been nice to go through all those experiences instead of waking up the next day and finding that they’re all done?
How much do we wish for that? How many times have you actually wished to wake up and have everything ready before you? Where’s the fun in that though? Where’s the adventure in that? The experience? The lesson?
Sometimes the destination doesn’t matter as much as the path. Think about it, once you get where you want to get, what would you do next? You might have other plans, new ones, but what would get you to achieving them? If there’s no path, there’s no destination.
I’m not sure if I really like this “waking up and finding yourself ten years older” thing. Well, it might be fun for a day just to see what it’d be like, but not permanently.
Ten years! A lot can happen in one second, how about ten years?
You know those moments when you feel really down and sadness overwhelms you? What do you do in those times to actually overcome it?
Do you cry your heart out? Do you get aggressive on everyone or yourself? Do you scream your heart out? Do you go running? Do you call that one person that makes you feel better? Do you go and sit alone by the sea or do you prefer a nice stroll in nature? Do you pray? Do you listen to music? Do you draw? Do you write? Do you paint?
So many options… What do you do? What is it that caused that sadness? How do you reflect it? How do you turn that abstract thought and make it concrete?
What I do is write… I write my heart out and put it all on paper. I do that most when I’m sad and when I’m angry. This second self of me comes out and unleashes all her anger and sadness on a piece of paper.
Tell me… What is it that you do?
Tonight I learned Sign language. Since my sister and her friend are half-deaf, they communicate through signs. That is the cutest and most fun language I’ve ever learned so far. According to them, there’s a universal language for signs. Each sign means a certain word in all languages. However, what differs is the letters signs.
Some words and sentences I learned were: “I’m free”, “you’re snobbish”, “I want to learn”, “you’re lying” and their negative forms, as well as “to block”, “cow”, “raindeer” etc.
Did you know that “learn” has two sign moves: one means “learning with a teacher” and the other means “learning by yourself”.
Plus, these are the cutest people ever. They teach you their language through such funny mimics to accompany the signs, you’d think you’re watching a comedy show. They’re actually right next to me now talking and I can understand almost every move they’re making.
On a complete other note, we were completely worried about my sister not fitting in and having problems memorising the signs. That was seven years ago and God were we wrong at the time.
Something always compensates for the lack of something else. Her absolutely marvelous memory, intelligence and talent compensated for her lack of speech, eventhough she’s getting much better in pronunciation.
Never underestimate the power of someone just because they’re not “perfect” to you. Whatever “perfect” means to you anyway.
Learning signs tonight, for the first time in seven years, has made me realise how beautiful this language is. It beats each and every single spoken language.
Just like some words soothe your soul, to others it’s the signs that do so…
As Ken Glickman, a deaf proverbs book writer, says: “Signs are to eyes what words are to ears”!!!
The Eighth Sin
Remember the seven cardinal sins? You’re given the serious task of adding a new one to the list — another trait or behavior you find particularly unacceptable, for whatever reason. What’s sin #8 for you? Why?
To me, the eighth sin should be intolerance. We all fall under so many different groups of all kinds (religion, race…). However, we all belong to one nature of creatures: human beings. Then, why hate someone who is ‘different’ from you? How does that make you any better than them?
The question of what might the eighth deadly sin be came right in time. Why? Well, simply because one of my friends has just been dumped by her boyfriend. That boyfriend of hers just realised that he’s going out with a girl of a different religion and decided he should dump her. Eventhough she told him she would convert just for him, he still emphasised that she was raised by people of her own religion. Not accepting her the way she is simply means that he never truly loved her. What he doesn’t know is that love has no religion, no colour, no age…
When you love someone, you love them for who they are and how they treat you, not for what they are. No one decides in what environment they want to be born in, nor do they plan what they want to look like before they come to life. They are what they are and you ought to accept them the way they are if you truly love them. If you don’t love them, then let them be. What good does it bring you to hurt them? Hurting someone just because you don’t accept their different religion should be considered as a deadly sin.
We are equal and ought to be treated equally. If one’s ethnicity or religion does not fit your requirements, then let them be and do not plan on hurting them. They are born this way and there’s nothing you could do about it. If they want to change, they will. If not, then deal with it. Never demean someone because they come from a different kind. Their traditions and customs might be different than yours, but in the end remember that we are all humans after all.
Yup, there’s a storm up there! But, hey! Guess who was learning to control her thoughts and not let her brain take over her actions and mood? That’s right, moi! Meditation was of a great help two months ago. Now that I’ve stopped, however, my self-control decreased and the stressful me is back again… Naturally!
Anyway, until I get back to meditation, I’ll just write my thoughts down. It usually calms that over-thinking and restless brain of mine.
I wish I visited my uncle more often when he was hospitalized. Now, I’ll never forgive myself. I might have given him a bit of hope to live. He was just giving up. Damn work… Actually no, I could have visited him if I tried hard enough! I think I was fed up with hospitals… Now I regret it, it’s the only thing I regret actually. – I want to be on the 28th and quit this job already. – So much to do! I’ve got to start learning how to paint, find a new job, go places, go back to meditation, so many books on my “to-read” list… – “It’s as simple as something that nobody knows that her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes!” Sorry, I was singing, this song makes me happy! It’s “Bubble Toes” by Jack Johnson, listen to it! – London… One day… – You too, Europe! – You know what also makes me very happy? The oddity in the fact that my friend and I didn’t talk much back in the days and now, well now we talk almost everyday. It’s just so strange, but I like it! He’s one inspiration of an artist! – You meet so many people in your life, I hope that you find inspiration in them like I do… –
All is out on this piece of paper, I’m good now and look like a grinning bobcat.
End of thinking capacity…
Today I met this guy named José. No, not [x]osé, but [ʒ]osé. That’s how he pronounced it and how it ought to be said. José has a “problem” as many might call it – stuttering. He came into the shop where I work and took a deep breath to start talking. He was almost out of breath, but only because I was the 60th out of the 100 people he had to talk to. His target was to reach this number of people and see what their diverse opinions and reactions would be. He told me that many of them were impatient or stupefied as to what was going on with him. Of course, not everyone is open-minded and ready to accept people like him. That is utterly wrong!
As Ellen DeGeneres said: “there are the values that I stand for: honesty, equality, kindness, compassion, treating people the way you want to be treated and helping those in need. To me, those are traditional values.”
“Equality” and “treating people the way you want to be treated” are two very important segments. He is human just like you after all. Wear his shoes for a while and let’s see if you can last one whole hour without feeling demeaned by people.
On a completely different note, what José used to help him form his sentences correctly with rare stutters is “breath control”. I won’t go into scientific details about that because I wouldn’t really understand them myself. Long story short, stuttering happens because of closed vocal folds. So, breathing right will make the words come out easily. Many techniques are used for that: control of tongue, lips movements, prolongation of syllables etc. One characteristic that is most important is good eye-contact. In fact, José and I had a pretty well-controlled eye-contact. He amazed me so much that I couldn’t keep my eyes off him – unless if it were to check for any customers coming in.
Big respect to José and I hope we will meet again soon!
So, did you reach the 100th person? What were the reactions? How do you feel right now?
I’ve got so many questions for you…
Loads of respect and love!
Someone who believes in great achievers like you!